Dear God,
We have become very close the last 6 months and I feel very blessed to have found a new church home. This new church home has taught me many things and has helped me to get to the place of understanding I am at today. I enjoy thanking you for my many blessings and enjoy praying for others but I have found there is one thing I am afraid to ask for. I am afraid to pray for another child. Maybe it is the many years of unanswered prayers? You did eventually answer our prayers with the blessing of our son Ant with the help of an egg donor.
During my trip home I was faced with my failures (or what feels like my failures). While I am excited for my sister’s blessings but I am just green with envy of how easy it is for her to add to her family. Watching Ant play with all his cousins and their siblings rekindled my longing to add to our family.
Lord her is my official prayer, I want to add to our family! I want to lift it up to you and you can guide us down this path. Whether you bless us with a little miracle, 100% genetic sibling to Ant, embryo donation, or adoption: I would feel blessed to have another opportunity to raise another child.
Thank Lord for all of your blessings.
